No, it doesn’t piss us off first (well it might), but it does set us ablaze at the same time. We need to burn off the lies to become who we could be without them. And we love our lies, or hate them with the same vigor – the brain honestly doesn’t care which one it is, as long as the emotion is strong it creates the pathways through plasticity. The longer the lie has been in place the brighter and more painful the burning off. Or we can decide to hold on to the lie even when the truth manifests itself for any reason – pride, vanity, ignorance, laziness, not wanting to admit we were wrong. When we don’t see we are forgiven, once we see delusion is a choice.

Should we fear the truth? Well, yeah. Sometimes the process of seeing is something you never recover from. It could just as easily destroy us by burning off the things that are in dissonance. We may pull out exactly the jenga block that held the whole structure erect. Is being in truth but aimless and broken beyond recognition by it any better than a happy delusion that keeps you whole? We don’t know. We guess it is personal and dependent on what you value more – security even if it is not real or the truth, even if hard and heartbreaking. Be careful when digging though the truth, it is not a harmless redeeming act of only ascendance to a higher cleaner place. It is difficult, time consuming, soul crushing as well as liberating and strength generating.

How will you know you’re done with the lie you might have needed so far and to get you to the next level where you’re ready to see, hear and accept? There will be, for the lack of a better characterization, a voice It will feel like awakening of the conscience and shedding of the old skin where you’ll find yourself doing or saying something and suddenly there it will be, a crystal clear full formulated thought saying “You don’t believe this”, “This is not you”, “This is a lie” “What are you trying to prove?”… and you’ll start to notice it more and more, probably mostly ignoring it at the beginning because change is hard. Yet, since it won’t go away and will continue to interfere and to make you feel like a phone, ultimately you’ll listen and, if you have any sense, will start to at least not say or do the things the voice says are a lie if you still haven’t figured out the truth about that matter.

This is a shift in tectonics that can happen just as easily when you’re 21 or 81. Something inside will snap and start searching for the unadorned truth as the need to keep the sameness wanes to the point it becomes unbearable to not know. This is how it begins. We’re not really sure if it ever ends. If you’re doing it right – probably not.